My weekend was kinda difficult...
To start it off Tommy and I ended up kissing again which is bad because he still dates Cassie. Then I guess that same day he told David that he wants to be with Cassie and not me, so why would he lead me on?? Then I got to chill with Andrew Sunday and that was alot of fun, I've missed him soo much. We talked and are friends again! I didn't attend school yesterday so I could spend time with him and that was alot of fun...I was in "jail" and on "parole" because I chased him for my phone...haha, don't ask. It was just really random fun...but now it's all over.
Andrew's leaving for Basic Training in Missouri TODAY and will be there until April 4th, 2008. That's 1/2 a yr. from now... This hurts alot, I love him so much... My friend for 3 yrs, been through it all...why does he have to go??? 
I never have experienced a worse day in my life than October 15th, 2007. My best friend Angel has serious heart & chest problems because awhile back he was hit by a car. Little did we all know this would effect all of us... For the last week or so, The Riverside Crew has experienced nothing but drama within each other. Friendships and relationships have fallen. This has put alot of stress on the entire group and all of our bodies. Most of us have been depressed and angry on and off for about a week. This has caused us to eat less, fight more, cause harm to ourselves, etc. Yesterday the group, consisting of Angel, Nipplez, Tommy, Kayla, Sammy, Chrissy and I, was at Chrissy's house watching movies and hanging out. Sammy and Angel needed to talk because Angel was angry with Tommy and Sammy for flirting. So, they talked and Sammy told Angel she couldn't mess around or be with him anymore because she's friends with his ex- Gel and she loves him... not to mention she likes Tommy. Not the best thing to say, aye? Well, Angel was extremely upset and sitting in the hallway with Nipplez, crying his eyes out. >.>; That hurts to have to listen to, really it does. All of a sudden we hear a thump. Angel fainted. We all rush into the hallway, try to get him to wake up, breathe, talk, anything at all... He's barely moving, barely breathing... We call his family and an ambulance... We try giving him water and a breather, just to help a bit. Nothing works. We get him downstairs with the help of Nipplez and Eddie, and the EMTs take him from us. He's rushed off to the hospital in the ambulance...and we're left to wait and worry. We ask Nipplez what happens and Tommy got blamed for everything- So Tommy was balling his eyes out and leaves all of us. He goes to the back of the High School and smokes, thinking it'll make the pain go away. So us girls and Nipplez stay at Chrissy's house. We're crying, all emotional wrecks, but there was nothing we could do to help Angel or Tommy. That was when it turned for the worst. Nipplez starts breathing really heavy as he's crying... We think it's no big deal at all... All of a sudden he can't move, can't breathe... I'm holding him and he starts to calm down. Calm down too much- his breathing stops. He wasn't breathing for about a minute then snapped back. He was having a Panic Attack. We didn't know what to do, we waited until he was a bit better to leave the house and get air. We go to the High School and Nipplez is okay. As for Angel, we get a call that he's fine. He's going to be okay, just doing a few tests on him and he'll be out by the end of the night. Everyone was going to be okay. All the drama kept us on the edge, but we stayed strong and were so happy once everything was okay. Drama hurts everyone...Avoid it as much as you can.
Always, Genny aka Screwy bka Gennerz.
PS: Another thing that happened was that Tommy explained to me everything that happened within the last week to him. Apparently both of his grandmothers almost died, which is why when we went out and I joked and such he took it so seriously. The last thing he did before his favorite Grandma went to the hospital was argue with her. He was so angry, but didn't want sympathy, so he told me nothing-until now. He argued with me because of how hurt he was and now everytime he thinks back, he realizes that he lost me and almost lost his friends. He feels so fucked up. He still loves me and wants to be with me- only me. He doesn't even understand why he went back to Cassie. Probably because she happened to show up at his house that night we argued to "comfort" him? She did all this shit on purpose and Tommy knows he's going to get cheated on again. He's not waiting around for it to happen, he's dumping her today. Haha, stupid whore. I'm taking time to be single, but one problem is that I have no clue who I want to try to be with anymore!!! Ugh...issues.
Hehehehe...excitement.
To start off the weekend Thursday night, I slept over at Jen's house and didn't go to school. The pain of the breakup was too much for me to bear... I needed a break. So I took my time, and thought about everything, wrote Tommy a poem representing my angry/upset/hurt feelings towards both him and Cassie. I haven't had the nerve to give it to him yet, but I believe I will sometime later today. Friday, I chilled with my Crew in Riverside and planned on going to Midnight Bowling at Kenmore Lanes as we do almost every Friday night. The moment we got there, we got kicked out [ha] So we found a "ditch" so to speak to chill in. We made a circle and going around was pot and pixie sticks, lol. Of course, I'm straightedge, so I wasn't involved in the pot, but i had alot of pixie sticks. That circle was alot of fun, and we spent the night enjoying ourselves, alot. After everyone was leaving to go home, David and I were left to walk home together. We didn't walk right away because of how out of it he was being high and all. We sat down and were talking; just hanging out, and we ended up kissing. Being that he's my ex- it was quite different, yet a memory coming to life. I wanted to kiss him all night, and so once it happened I was really happy. We went to John's house after bowling and we ate Cookie Crisp and sandwiches on the Kitchen Floor. >.>; I went home, and went to bed. I woke up around 2pm on Saturday and got right up and out to see my Love, Rian. ^_^ We were all chillin' and I talked to Jen and convinced her to allow Sammy, Carmen and I to spend the night, so we could attend Bowling again and be able to hang out. It was alot of fun on us and we were with Angel and David alot of the time. Angel and Sammy spent alot of the night making out, while David and I did. We even got pictures on MySpace! >.< They're beautiful. So we stayed together, went up to bowling and were in the ditch again. We met up with James [Andrew's brother] and wound up searching a random shopping cart in the ditch. We found a digital camera and a cell phone. I know, I know, that does sound weird as hell, but it was cool. We had to chill at John's when we got back too early, but that's cool, it's fun there. David and I had to talk alot because, you see, he wants to be with me again, but I'm not ready because after all of this relationship drama, I just want to be single. I told David this and he understands and I'm glad. ^_^ So now I'm pretty much just having fun and, not to sound like a whore, but kissing people like crazy!! o_o Sunday, Sammy, Carmen and I got up around 1pm and Sammy left right away to go shower and outside. David came over to move stuffs for Jen, and then we all chilled in the house. Carmen made French Toast and we ate like crazy!! It was alot of fun, we were on the computer, just relaxing. After that, David left and Carmen and I finally left the house after 5:30pm, haha. We had to be back at Jen's by 7pm, so that we could drive Carmen home. In the van was David, Jen, Carmen and I. It was hilarious, because Carmen got us lost going to her house! Talk about weird. Finally getting back, Tommy showed up at the High School and was totally an ass to everyone, even calling Rian a faggot...BAD IDEA. Tommy left and everything was forgotten, we played Chicken, haha. I was on Angel's shoulders and Megan was on David's. David went down with a kick to the balls. Funny stuffs. I went to bed kind of early that night and woke up, got ready for school. I get there, chill outside for a bit; skipping until 1st period was over. OMG; Tommy was there and I guess the group is okay with him again, but the world is done with Cassie. That works for me, I like being around Tommy. Just I don't know how to feel about him anymore...*awkward.* Whatever, everything's fine, I'm done with the world. Well, the World of Drama, anyways. I may be skipping out again later today, we'll see what happens then, too. Dumdumdum...
Always, *Genny Aka Screwy Bka Gennerz*
I got dumped...i finished all my homework last night and went to bed early because I was tired. I thought everything would be okay, because I'd get to see and talk to Tommy tomorrow [today]. I wake up to 4 missed calls from Tommy's phone and a new voicemail. It was Cassie-my ex-best friend. It was telling me that Tommy was done with me and didn't want to be with me, he wanted to be with her. It said that if I had anything to say I know where she's at [Tommy's house] and not to talk shit. She called me a bitch and then hung up. I cried...I've been crying since 7AM and still break into tears now. I have his t-shirt, fitted and chain at my house and can't cope with looking at them. I want to leave school early and get my posters and stuff from Tommy. This hurts...my heart is broken...I feel so used...
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