05.13.2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT
Why say you love someone if it doesn't mean the same? Why give the one who feels you're their everything hope if there really is none? Why say there's a chance if there's no chance in the world? These questions I need answered. I feel so broken inside, I can't stop crying or shaking... Love doesn't mean anything... Mark says he loves me, he wants to hold me, he misses me, etc... Yet doesn't show it. He wants me to be with him today so he can be with her tomorrow. What sense does that make? If he's sorry he's hurting me sooo much, why does he keep doing this? I know I've hurt him, I understand, but putting me through this just doesn't make sense. He's killing me && knows it && keeps saying sorry; but I know he's not. He's not sorry at all. He wants her so bad, why leave me on the side? If I'm the one he loves && I'm the one that means more, why am I the back-up plan? Why am I the one being used? It just doesn't make sense && it hurts sooo bad. I never expected this out of Mark && right now, this feels like a nightmare, I want to wake up && be okay... ='[ I want to stop hurting && crying && wanting to die... I just don't understand how the word love doesn't mean a thing...
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